Great gatsby, it's the internet!
One of the things I love about the internet is its ability to save information for what seems like forever. Go ahead, look at the dates of my other posts. For over four years everything I have written in the past has been saved by Google. My fears of the internet age - the age without letters and where everything is done on computers - were that we would lose valuable data and keepsakes that were a part of past generations. Perhaps that concern was short sighted.
Sadly, four years have passed and there is still a constant struggle with God. I have lived long enough to survive the devastation of a broken heart, failed miserably in ministry and business, been humbled and weakened, seen my faith saved by twins who will never know how God used them - and yet I find my heart is still more closely related to the heart of Saul than it is David.
Like millions who have come before me I am quick to stop praising God for his greatness and begin to ask, "What have you done for me lately?". My success is a result of my greatness, but my failure is from God.
Who knows how long I will continue to update this blog this time around - but I hope it is a consistent outpouring of my heart as I try to seek God's face. Following a blog like this is kind of a weird thing. You might run into the occasional TMI, and perhaps some posts will reference the word "I" too frequently - but my hope is that writing out my struggles will help me learn how to love God the way David did. Maybe it will inspire you some too.